Neil Diamond: I Am…I Said


Neil Leslie Diamond (born January 24, 1941) is an American singer-songwriter, musician and actor. One of the world’s best-selling artists of all time, he has sold over 135 million records worldwide since the start of his career in the 1960s.


Wow…Neil Diamond has sold over 135 million records worldwide. That’s roughly the equivalent of 4+ albums per person in Canada. What can I say? Neil Diamond is a prolific artist whose music has influenced several generations, including mine. I honestly cannot say which song of Diamond’s is my favourite, however I would like to mention I Am…I Said, a song that I listened to on Roon this morning. It is a deeply moving song that speaks to the loneliness that many people experience in life, myself included.

I can relate to the lyrics and his displacement between L.A. and New York. Only, for me, it is a displacement between two places I used to call home. If your parents divorced and remarried, especially when you were young, you may relate to my experience also. You see, my father’s home, in a small town, is and was always his second wife’s home and no longer mine. In the same way, my mom’s home in the city is her second husband’s home and not mine.

Like a displaced orphan of circumstance, I have nowhere to call home.

As a consequence, I have planted new roots in a new city with a family of my own. As long as I have life and breath, I want my three girls, our grandchildren, and their husbands and boyfriends to know that our home is their home without any conditions or equivocating.

There is a verse in the Bible that has always meant so much to me and caused me to draw close to God in the loneliest of times.

Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close. Psalm 27:10 NLT

Even though I talk to both my mom and dad on the phone somewhat regularly, and I visit them occasionally, I still have a sense of loss and abandonment deep within me. They are getting quite elderly now, and I feel an ever urgent need to somehow be present in their lives. Dysfunctional you say? Perhaps, but that does not make it any easier to wrestle with personally in the fifth decade of my life on this great blue marble we call home.

The good news is that I am not alone in all this. Jesus Christ is present with me, as is my immediate family. And I am thankful 🙂

The choices we make today become who we are tomorrow…

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Number 54

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A short video of our modest home and yard. It’s hard to believe that twenty-two years have gone by since we first purchased the home. Out initial intent was to buy a modest house (instead of renting) while I was in graduate school. The plan was to flip the house after three years and, hopefully, make a significant profit.

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